I grew up under the teaching that God died to save us, and that it was up to man to decide whether or not to follow God. I am sure you have all heard the phrase "God votes for you, Satan votes against you and you cast the deciding vote."
It is like some great, mythical holy (or rather, unholy) grail that we seek. Should we ever find it, then we will know that it is we who are in charge of our lives. As Satan said to Eve, we would be like God.
But, behold the true choice of man.
Behold the world in its fallen state. Behold sin, degradation, pain, suffering and every other evil you might name.
In these two words, the heart of man shows that it is not truly broken. The will is not subject to God. It is as if somehow we vainly believe that we might be able to thwart the plans of an Almighty God and therefore congratulate ourselves for the brilliant choice in coming to God.
Read what the prophet Isaiah says to Israel again.
1 "Listen to this, O house of Jacob,
you who are called by the name of Israel
and come from the line of Judah,
you who take oaths in the name of the LORD
and invoke the God of IsraelÂ
but not in truth or righteousness-
2 you who call yourselves citizens of the holy city
and rely on the God of Israel
4 For I knew how stubborn you were;
the sinews of your neck were iron,
your forehead was bronze.
This is the heart of those who say I choose, be they unconverted sinners or unrepentant Christians deep in sin. You choose the only thing you can, sin, and really, that is no choice at all.